Handling a holiday in isolation

I bet like me, you are feeling like this Easter doesn’t even feel like a holiday. I know that I am missing making dinner for my six children and their spouses and my grandsons. Missing my family has made me take a look back. How many holidays over the years; during my darkness, where all my children here? Yet, I was not present! I would be so stuck in the darkness; stuck in my thoughts, in the misery of my past that I couldn’t enjoy a single moment. Sometimes I was just to drunk or high to care. How many wasted holidays that I can’t get back? So today, I plan to focus on why this Easter is wonderful! I am sober and happy and at peace. Those things allow me to be present to my children today, even if it is via video chat. I also get to be present and make dinner for the two kiddos that are still here living with me. I can celebrate this holiday knowing that the relationships I have with friends and family are solid and built with honesty. I know that this is not an ideal holiday for anyone during these frightening times but I also know that this too shall pass. I know that I didn’t fight my way out of addiction to be knocked down by this virus or time of social distancing! What can I do today to make this a happy and memorable holiday? I can take the time to call each of my children and tell them how much I love them. I can lovingly make a nice meal for the kiddos here and spend some time with them. I can send a Happy Easter text to my friends and I can take a little time to recall all I have to be grateful for. I hope you all have a happy holiday and find little ways to make it memorable remembering that this time is precious and tomorrow is never promised!