Time to call it quits for the day. It’s been a long one working on home projects and taking care of household chores, shopping and cooking. The candles are lit, tv is on preparing to watch the Oscars, a warm blanket draped across me and my laptop resting on my lap. Throughout the day whileContinue reading “Digging Deep”
Author Archives: Diane Marie
Huge Realization
I just had ONE of the worst weeks that I remember having since I got sober. After the last six days, I came to a realization that I have a lot more work to do on myself than I thought. I knew that I would always be working to be the best version of myselfContinue reading “Huge Realization”
The Struggle
It has been a struggle these last few days. Emotions all over the place, insides all swirling around, anxiety reaching for the sky. I’m struggling to understand where all this crazy is coming from and that frustrates the hell out of me. My sleep is off, and I am having to use meditation apps onContinue reading “The Struggle”
If I Had Been Parented
Today is a blaring reminder of how not having been parented still affects me all these years later. I had another job interview this morning and they offered me the job. That should be exciting, right? For me, it is confusing and challenging and really scary. I now have two offers and am waiting toContinue reading “If I Had Been Parented”
The Positive Power of Technology and Social Media
I was only going to write once today but my mind is swirling and so much is happening. I have a third interview now set up for tomorrow morning and I am excited and nervous. I have all these thoughts and all the feels, and I am trying to sort through them all and handleContinue reading “The Positive Power of Technology and Social Media”
Ding, Ding, Ding, Lightbulb
Yesterday I questioned where my fears and anxiety were coming from regarding making a career change. It took several hours and two very different conversations before the light bulb finally went off. One may say that I am a little slow when it comes to the obvious. In the late afternoon, my mother made anContinue reading “Ding, Ding, Ding, Lightbulb”
Day Two of Peace and Excitement
To recap, Monday I left a toxic job, Tuesday I had a great interview for a potential job and today I had an interview for a job that lit a fire in me that I have never felt before! I sat in this interview today and felt like I was in another universe. It wasContinue reading “Day Two of Peace and Excitement”
It’s Been a Minute!
Oh my, it has been a while since I have been able to write. Part of the reason comes from the blessing of sobriety and having spent the last year working 53 hours a week and building more financial stability. The other part is working the last 13 months for 53 hours a week withContinue reading “It’s Been a Minute!”
IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY
The saying in the photo is something that I am now able to say to myself with almost 100% confidence. I am beginning to understand now; in my continued sobriety, that I really did make decisions that hurt myself because I did not know any better. I am not a horrible person. I am aContinue reading “IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY”
SOBER MOTHER’S DAY
I woke up at six this morning to find a tray of goodies and the coffee pot ready to go as a Mother’s Day treat from my sixteen year old daughter. What an absolute gift. I am very confident that she has no idea that what she did means so much to me. Her actContinue reading “SOBER MOTHER’S DAY”
FIRST WEEK BACK TO WORK
After being off work for six weeks due to COVID19, I just finished my first week back to work and boy am I exhausted! I briefly forgot the challenge in balancing both my work and home life. I awoke early this Saturday morning to dishes, a mound of laundry, much vacuuming to do as wellContinue reading “FIRST WEEK BACK TO WORK”
LEARNING SELF LOVE
I have to say, it is bad enough when others speak unkindly to us but I have found that it is even worse when we speak unkindly to ourselves. This is something that I am definitely still working on daily. I have a really bad habit of coming down hard on myself. I am veryContinue reading “LEARNING SELF LOVE”
FINDING LIFE IN THE RIGHT PLACE
When I began my journey in recovery, I found an old faded piece of paper with a paragraph written on it. I honestly do not remember where I found it but I found significant meaning in its words and have it now on the bulletin board next to my desk. This is what is says…Continue reading “FINDING LIFE IN THE RIGHT PLACE”
WEEKENDS
What an absolute glorious morning so far! The sun is shining and the temperature is finally high enough to crack some windows open. I awoke early enough to enjoy much quiet time and get a few things accomplished. Sitting at my desk with music playing softly in the background as the birds chirp near theContinue reading “WEEKENDS”
AMAZED AT WHERE I AM
So this past weekend, my youngest of six children turned 16. To any girl; approaching that milestone, it is a big deal. She has three older sisters and has heard of their themed sweet sixteen birthday parties. Needless to say she and her friends were planning out hers. And then the world changed. No longerContinue reading “AMAZED AT WHERE I AM”